just want a sandwich...damn it!!

i like a good sandwich...really who doesn't???  LOVE  - wait, passionately LOVE jimmy johns - which can be a real bad habit!

i do not know what came over me this morning - but i was so ready to get my soon to be two year old son dressed and haul it over to JJ's at 9am for a #12 (beach club, all the way baby).  i didn't - in fact, i have only eaten at JJ's once in the last five months or so - and when i did, it was the veggie on whole grain, ez mayo and i removed most of the cheese...so, it was kinda, sorta healthy...lol

we did go out though - to the grocery store to get fresh produce for dinners this week - and mommy's morning super juice...diet rockstar.  well, i am you know....

and we did just that...but there is the bakery right next to the produce department - like who ever thought THAT was a good idea???  the smell of fresh rolls did me in...i am a sucker for a freshly baked onion roll...and that was the end of that.  next thing i know,  my son and i were getting a nice selection of fresh rolls (my husband will certainly appreciate this delicacy for his lunches this week)...then to the deli for real sliced roasted turkey breast, not the processed cold cuts...ok, this is in the right direction - deli meats are fresh and lower in sodium than processed...wohooooo.  yeah, i know, all the fitness minded folks just threw up their arms in utter disgust and shame for me.   like us all, they will get over it...momma wants a sandwich!!!!

i remembered that i had a ripe avocado at home, along with a jar of fire roasted red peppers....my sandwich dream is all coming together...one more thing to pick up - honey mustard.  already have mayo with olive oil at home...so i think that will do it.

we arrived at home and i hastily made my son's lunch as my sandwich craving was starting to rear its ugly head.  ok - the boy is eating.  time to make my some-what healthy creation...here goes:

onion roll - of course!!
one side of roll with olive oil mayo and honey mustard spread
one side of roll with fresh mashed avocado
the filling:
fire roasted red peppers
half slice of colby-jack cheese (or as my kids call it - spotty cheese)
butterball roasted turkey breast (thin sliced - about 3 slices)

i think i inhaled it before my son was done with his lunch...lol  it was outstanding and let me tell you it could have been much, much worse....the sheer amount of bad things i could have added to my sandwich...oh, the possibilities....like bacon, yeah bacon, that totally would have put that sandwich over the top...and more cheese!!!

so, i did it - probably blew most of my calorie count today - but i do have my bootycamp class tonight...i have certainly earned the need for intense work-out.  nope, do not feel guilty - totally satisfied and totally happy with keeping it within a range of some-what healthy items.

glad i did not go to JJ's, as i really would have been feeling the guilt and very full as the sandwich is probably 800 calories...

oh well - all in the day of trying to lose weight.....